Haf.My Story. Part I : The Beauty in Ugly

Hey. How are you guys doin'?
Today I'm gonna share something about myself.
Something that most of you people don't know about. Something that might never even crossed your mind.

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Yeap. that was me in those pictures. =)

Back then. I was this lil nerdy kid. A kid with a cap, a big shirt and a real big jeans, always.
Someone who was socially awkward. Yeap. I was. (well, still am, I guess).

And to top that off, I had a problem with my skin. I had real bad skin. Covered with pimples on, pretty much my whole face. It was really bad. And I locked myself up in my room, almost every precious second. I barely go out pun, apatah lagi nak lepak dengan kawan (and I didn't have many friends pun anyway). I did things on my own most of the time. I was just really not comfortable in my own skin. How I hope it would end, that very second.

It was horrible. People were staring. People were talking. Even bapa aku sendiri nak tumbuk muka aku sebab banyak acne.

As if I asked for it. ?

My friend once said to me, "Bontot aku lagi lawa dari muka kau lah".
Yeap. right on my face.

Sakit bhai. Gila terasa hina bila orang sama kan muka aku dengan punggung dia.

But that was back then. 5 years has passed. Aku bukan lagi mangsa cacian. Bukan lah mengatakan diri ini cukup kacak, hot atau pun sempurna. Jauh. terlalu jauh dari semua itu. Tapi aku sedar, aku bukan ditempat dulu. I've changed. Physically, mentally and emotionally.

But what happened to me years back got me thinking. Berfikir secara matang. Untuk lebih menghargai kita sesama manusia tanpa menilai rupa seseorang individu itu. 

Dan hidup bukan lah satu kisah dongeng. Tapi, tiada apa yang mustahil. Dulu, aku sering diperli dan dikutuk oleh rakan-rakan. Iya lah. Siapalah aku? sekadar budak "nerd" yang penuh jerawat di muka. Bila aku ambil gambar pun. Di tertawa kan. Aku menyimpan angan-angan untuk menjadi "photographer" bebas dahulu. Kerana sedar, wajah aku tidak layak untuk berada di hadapan kamera. 
Tetapi, Alhamdulillah. Sekarang, they want this face to be in front of the camera. Kuasa Allah. =)

"Believe in your dreams. Believe in yourself. Believe, that one day, what you believe in is to be believed."

- H.A

Jadi, jangan dipinggir orang yang terasing. Mereka mampu berubah bukan sahaja untuk diri sendiri, malahan, segelintir dari orang-orang sebegini, merekalah yang merubah dunia.

Ada ke iPhone, Facebook, etc kalau tak ada nerd? =P

cantik/kacak sahaja, tetapi "kosong". tak kemana juga. =)
be the "Beauty with Briefcase."
Ilmu penuh didada. kebijaksanaan terserlah.

Kami mungkin tidak seindah rupa, tetapi, untuk seseorang yang bukan sahaja indah rupa, tetapi juga, dalaman. Mereka tidak menyisih. They'll find "the beauty in ugly".
Now, that's what true beauty is.

Sincerely,

H.A